heavy heart

[Melissa]

I just put my little silky terrier down a couple days after this last christmas. He was 17 yrs. old. He was blind and seemed to be lost and confused. He would stand in one place for about 15 minutes with his head down. I would have to pick him up and hold him and/or lay him on his bed.  When he was in my arms, he did know where he was and lay their for a few hours feeling comforted and content. I couldn't bare to see him suffer that way, and so I had a decision to make. As I was in the room with him just before he was put down, he rubbed his head against me. It made it that much harder for me. I believe that it had to be a sign that he knew what was going on and he was telling me that it was ok. My heart still breaks. Everything around me reminds me of him. He was my baby and my world. Not to be able to hold, pet, or see his face again leaves me with a heavy, broken heart. If anyone has any advice for me on how to cope, please let me know.

[MandysMom]

I feel for you.  I had to put my 14 1/2 year old German Shepherd to sleep the day after Thanksgiving, and I felt the same way, like I would never make it through it and I didn't know what to do to feel better.  I found support through petloss.com - they have very supportive readings - and I ordered a couple of books from their website - "Crossing the Rubicon" and "Animals and the Afterlife."  Writing down my feelings also helped - even if nobody read them and you just throw it away.  I still wish every day that I could have her back. 

[sherribaby1254]

Hi,
  I know just what you are going thru.  I just put down my dachshund of which I had for 15 yrs. on Jan 27. She was such a good friend, I come home & there is no one here.  It is so lonely I just sit & look at her pictures & cry my heart out. She couldn't hardly walk anymore, she was also blind in both eyes & she couldn't control her bladder anymore.  I new it was time but it was such a hard decison to make.  She would get lost when she would get out of bed when I wasn't here & I couldn't let her suffer anymore.  But my heart is broke & I miss her so much. Her name was Snuggles because she liked to snuggle.  I stayed right with her until she was gone.  Last year I bought her a doggy stroller as she was having problems with her legs already, so we would go for walks & people couldn't believe that I had her in a stroller, she just loved it.  I don't want another dog as I am not home enough anymore & I don't think I could go thru that again.  Everyone tells me that time will heal the pain & the hurt & I'm sure they are right, I guess we have to remember the good times we had with them, & I had plenty with her.
Sherri with a broken heart!!!

[LoveforSimon]

I just joined today.  It's been three weeks (1/21/09)  since my beloved Wiemaraner, Simon, of 12 years passed away.  I still feel like I am sinking.  He was the sunshine of my life and there are no words to express the incredible emptiness and loss I feel.  I want to hug him and touch him and kiss him so bad.  I miss him more than I can say.  I have another dog and seven cats and yet my home feels completely empty without Simon.  Of course, I love all my babies with all my heart and they are all advanced age with mutliple illnesses from diabetes, liver cancer, kidney disease, mast cell cancer, etc.  They need so much special care and I have to be here for them, but I hate to say this, if it weren't for them, I often don't feel like I could go on. They are also grieving as well and it is heartbreaking, so I take my other dog with me to work every day and I try to keep thinks upbeat, but I am sure they catch me crying.  I was so hysterical the first week, I couldn't hide it if I tried.  Anyway, I feel your pain and I am so sorry for you loss and all others on this site.