Lost a part of me my dog on new years eve 09

[Teenie]

I lost my loved one on new years eve I think she had a heart attack I was screaming at her to not leave me and trying to give her CPR it was so hard.  She was a 9 1/2 yr old Bulldog that I expected to have more wonderful memories of.  There were no signs she was happy and seemed healthy its so hard to cope..I had to take down her pictures cuz I just cry.  I'm getting her creamated and not sure if I'm ready to get the ashes (my friend is doing all the work).. 

[Teenie]

Things have gotten better over time.  My other bullie misses her so much they were very close, we rescued another bulldog but my female doesn't seem to care for him I think she is still grieving.  I kiss her box with the ashes in it and tell her I lover her and miss her everyday.  I'm sorry to hear about losing your loved one.  again its never easy..[/img]